I Am Grateful for My Health

Tomorrow, I am going to the doctor for a procedure (surgery) that requires me to be under anesthesia.  I am kinda freaking out about this.

Without going into details (yet - I may later in hopes of helping someone else experiencing the same thing), I will be under "light" anesthesia for a 20 minute procedure that is, in my doctor's words, "routine."  Not routine for ME, though.

This will be my first time under anesthesia.  I'm scared.  But also?

I am grateful for my health.

Nothing like a little health scare to put things in perspective.

Not only am I completely OVER going to the doctor (I've probably been four times in the last three months, which is a lot for me), but I am also over dealing with insurance (and I'm an insurance agent, remember??) and pumping and the logistics of taking care of the kids while I'm at the doctor and being scared that this is going to have an unpleasant outcome.  

It's. Not. Fun.

And it makes me realize how incredibly lucky I am.  

Most likely, this will all turn out okay.  My life will go back to normal (with a few more routine check-ups). If it turns out it's *not* okay, it will still probably turn out okay as what I am dealing with is very treatable.  

What about the people who are chronically ill or seriously injured?  What about the people who spend days, weeks, months in hospitals and being shuttled from doctor to doctor?  What about the people who endure surgeries all the time - I bet they would think I'm a real wuss right now.  

I bet someone who doesn't have insurance and needs it would hate to hear me bitch about mine.  I bet someone who is in the hospital right now would hate to hear me whine about a few doctor appointments.  

I can't imagine the emotional, financial and physical strain an ongoing illness could cause a family.  I just get a little taste of it and I'm OVER IT ALREADY.   

So today, I am grateful for my health - and the health of my family - and will not take it for granted.